Hey folks!
Okay, by now you've witnessed that my "daily" blogging isn't EVERY day. (laughs)
Let's see...having a great time with Stacey, here in the bay area. I noticed that since I've been here, my sleep patterns have changed. When I was staying with Jennifer in Sacramento, I didn't go to sleep for the night until after 2 am and then I was up by 6 or 7 that same morning. I felt, I dunno, edgy, frustrated...just uneasy. Since I've been at Stacey's, I've been to sleep before 1am and have managed to get almost 6 or 7 hours of sleep each evening - which is something I've not been able to do, historically. I've decided that it's because I feel like I'm "home" here with Stacey. Sure, I still have the same pressures and decisions facing me, but I feel a sense of encouragement and optimism that I wasn't feeling in Sacramento.
I've also been faced with the fact that there is nothing I'd like more than to live in the Bay Area. I love the weather, the people watching, the hustle and bustle - I loved it when I lived here years ago. I've thought about just trying to find a good job and a safe place for my family settle into, but then there's the reality:
1. The cost of living is just as high here, as it was in Hawaii - in some areas, higher.
2. The school districts in some areas, leave a lot to be desired
3. The extreme difference in culture may be a little too overwhelming for the kids
So, I've been forced to appreciate that despite my strong desire to live here, it's not the best choice for my family as a unit. Tough pill to swallow, but it's what I signed up for when I committed to being a mother and wife, right?
I'll be leaving on Sunday, to go back to Citrus Heights and I'll be back with a vengance, the determination that I need to secure a great job! I guess this time away has been rejuvenating for me. And I'm on my way already. I got a call (only my second call back from the 50 resumes I've sent out, can ya believe it?!) yesterday, from an Opthamologist's office looking for an Office Manager. Have an interview next week Thursday. Hope it works out.
My father's sister died on Monday. She'd been suffering from congestive heart failure and her body just couldn't function anymore. She's the youngest of my father's sisters, and his siblings insist that she and I have always looked just like one another. I'm honored!
Stacey and I will be traveling to Fresno next week Friday, and staying until Wednesday. (The funeral is on the 5th, that Tuesday) It'll be nice to see all of my father's side of the family, I'm not nearly as close to them as I'd like to be and it's difficult to have such a somber reunion. On the flip side, only a few members of that side of my family have met my kids, and none have ever met Will - so it will be an introduction of sorts, too.
After that, August will be well underway and before I know it, it'll be time for the kids to start school and then we move closer to the end of the year and the beginning of another. I was just telling my sisters (Stacey and Michelle) last night, that I hope my 39th year is better than the year I had at 38. Don't think I could handle it, on top of everything else.
Off to enjoy a day of sun and solace in Oaktown!