Better late than never right?!
This posting is late due to some serious kinks in the life of my son. This week has been trying for me, as a parent, and at the same time - as an individual. Without going into too much detail (and protecting the confidentiality of my son), Forrest has experienced somewhat of a "breakdown" emotionally. We're getting him help and hopefully with some therapy and medication, he'll get some sort of normalcy back to his life, soon. As a parent, when your child goes thru trama (regardless of either physical or emotional) you second-guess what you could've done, what you might've said, and what you finally decided to do. I struggle with this...on a daily basis. Then I struggle with the "opinions" and advice of others, who either don't have kids or haven't had the most success with their kids - they seem to have all the answers, but aren't always there for support when you need them.
I'm sad, sad because my son is angry and in anguish most of the time. Sad because I don't know what I can do. But my next move will be to find someone who CAN help, a professional. And I'll continue to pray for the patience and determination to see him thru adolescence into adulthood. And then until I take my last breath.
Other than my challenges as a parent, I'm still actively looking for work. Had a great interview last week and thought I would hear back the beginning of this week. By Wednesday (this week) I was convinced I'd not been able to land the job. I sent an email asking for confirmation that the position had been filled, but instead got a reply back that I was still a "top candidate" and that they would be making their decision soon. Yipee! Some gleem of optimism remains.
Will has an interview today, so I'm hopeful that he'll land a job. Isn't that funny? He's been actively searching for a job for two weeks and got an interview. It took me almost three months to get my first interview, after sending out 6-8 resumes a day. Whatever.
Gracyn is doing fine, loves school and never lets me forget that parenting can be joyous! That little girl is such a blessing to me! Forrest is a blessing AND a learning experience!
This is all for now, hopefully my next blog will reflect that either Will and/or myself have landed a job and we're one step closer to being out in a place of our own.

Hey peeps!!
Here I am again, another week, another worry, right? Still not working, but have an interview tomorrow. The position is Office Manager for a Psychiatry office, specializing in child and forensic psychology. So...the bonus if I get this job (besides the obvious bonues - money, a home, food, etc)? I can get some psych help for relatives in need. Feel me? (laughs) I'll keep you posted as to how it goes.
Finally found the kingdom hall here...I'd had a few problems getting started, but I went to my first meeting last night. Everyone was very friendly (which I expected) and although we (the kids and I) were a little nervous, it all worked out.
Things here in the mainland are slowly settling down. I can't believe it's already the middle of September. Gracyn left for school this morning with a scarf (which she's been dying to wear) - which spilled into a conversation about how cold it will get here. She then confessed that she wants some "boots with the fur" for the Winter. I'm sure, even though I wish she wouldn't wear them, we can hook her up with some.
I introduced her to thrift stores this weekend. There's a place here called Eco-thrift that has some amazing clothes, some still with the tags hanging from them. It's clean and HUGE. Anyhow, she went there with me and...found alot she wanted. She did end up getting quite a bit, but not anything close to all that she wanted. Forrest seemed happy for her when she showed him her "new" things, but after hearing it was second-hand, he made it clear that he wanted absolutely nothing from there. Oh, well, ya gotta have one picky kid right?
Will began HIS job search this week, beginning with a mad dash to a temp agency and then numerous postings of his resume on the internet. I showed him how to use email and I think he's comfortable after a few days. Good for him. Good for us!!
Well, not much else to report. I'm off to search the world wide web for a J-O-B.

Okay here it is...a long awaited blog entry. (Readers have been asking)
Last time I blogged, I'd just returned from a trip to Fresno, my first trip to see my parents since we all moved from Hawaii. I was anxious about the kids starting new schools, I had concerns for both of them. I was also sweatin like a whore in church, lookin for a job.
Alot has transpired since then.
The first day of school was probably more stressful for me than it was for either of the two kids. I was concerned that one or both of them would be roaming the school alone at recess, eating lunch alone, and/or just plain feeling "alone". My heart dropped into my stomach as we dropped off Forrest first and then Gracyn.
After three weeks - I don't have much to report on regarding school for the kids except: Gracyn's teacher left her 4th grade class to teach a 3rd grade class in need of a teacher and she then got a new teacher. (When I say new I mean NEW - this is his first year as a teacher and he's super patient and fun - we're fortunate)
Forrest has only four classes in total - which is a HUGE change for him, because he spends over and hour and a half in each class, with no breaks other than lunch. (His ADHD is really being tested, as far as his being able to concentrate and be still for that long) Seems that he's had a pretty good start though.
After sending out hundreds (literally) of resumes, I finally got a call back from a large dental practice in search of an Office Manager. I went in for a short interview and was asked to come back for a working interview - spending the day observing the duties of the current Office Manager who will be leaving. Boy is this job going to be stressful, if it's offered to me. Employees are late, snobby, lazy, insubordinate, and sometimes rude - even some of the Doctors. I was asked to return for one more working interview tomorrow, at which time I'm sure they'll either offer me the job or choose another candidate. (It's now between me and another candidate - who, by the way, was not asked to come back for a second working interview)
While all of this was going down (the working interview), I received two calls from other organizations about the resume I'd submitted for positions. I have a phone interview tomorrow morning for one and I'm supposed to call the other tomorrow morning to schedule an interview. One is an Executive Assistant position, I'd be assisting the President of a large automobile parts company. The other is for a brand new psychiatry practice, with two locations, opening very soon. Either one could be good. So, I'm hoping to keep my options open and find the one with the best schedule and feel.
I can't say that anything more has changed in regards to how I've been feeling about my current situation. I'm still here, living with someone and I really have grown to be resentful of making the change so suddenly. Live and learn, I guess, huh?
Our family is back together (geographically) and we're all in good health. Guess I should consider myself fortunate.
I'll resume my blogs on Tuesdays probably, it's the time I'm sure to get some private computer time without someone trying to read my blogs over my shoulder while I type. Happy reading!!!