Better late than never right?!
This posting is late due to some serious kinks in the life of my son. This week has been trying for me, as a parent, and at the same time - as an individual. Without going into too much detail (and protecting the confidentiality of my son), Forrest has experienced somewhat of a "breakdown" emotionally. We're getting him help and hopefully with some therapy and medication, he'll get some sort of normalcy back to his life, soon. As a parent, when your child goes thru trama (regardless of either physical or emotional) you second-guess what you could've done, what you might've said, and what you finally decided to do. I struggle with this...on a daily basis. Then I struggle with the "opinions" and advice of others, who either don't have kids or haven't had the most success with their kids - they seem to have all the answers, but aren't always there for support when you need them.
I'm sad, sad because my son is angry and in anguish most of the time. Sad because I don't know what I can do. But my next move will be to find someone who CAN help, a professional. And I'll continue to pray for the patience and determination to see him thru adolescence into adulthood. And then until I take my last breath.
Other than my challenges as a parent, I'm still actively looking for work. Had a great interview last week and thought I would hear back the beginning of this week. By Wednesday (this week) I was convinced I'd not been able to land the job. I sent an email asking for confirmation that the position had been filled, but instead got a reply back that I was still a "top candidate" and that they would be making their decision soon. Yipee! Some gleem of optimism remains.
Will has an interview today, so I'm hopeful that he'll land a job. Isn't that funny? He's been actively searching for a job for two weeks and got an interview. It took me almost three months to get my first interview, after sending out 6-8 resumes a day. Whatever.
Gracyn is doing fine, loves school and never lets me forget that parenting can be joyous! That little girl is such a blessing to me! Forrest is a blessing AND a learning experience!
This is all for now, hopefully my next blog will reflect that either Will and/or myself have landed a job and we're one step closer to being out in a place of our own.