Hey there!!!!!!!!!
Well, the new job is great! I'm taking the next six weeks to evaluate the current staff and then I'll be making some decisions about whether we will continue to function with the current staff, add more staff, or release some of the staff from employment. (Boy am I glad I'M doing the evaluating!)
The kids are back in school today, after three weeks of winter break. I'm glad, it'll keep them busy now, during the day. They'd really gotten used to waking up at noon and not sleeping until the wee hours of the morning. (Must be nice, huh?)
Forrest is finally settled, well, physically anyway. I finally found him a doctor, he's got his necessary medication, and the next step will be getting his school administration in gear. After that, I can concentrate on getting him the psychiatric counseling, he so needs.
Gracyn is doing well, she's glad school is back in and getting ready for her first California field trip. I'm excited for her. (But not excited enough to chaperon)
I think I've found a house. Went to the Kingdom Hall and someone approached me, asked if I was looking for a house, said she had one and didn't want to "make any money" off me, but wanted someone to take care of her house. I told her I would and she practically handed me the keys. I told her I needed to save up some money and she said a deposit "wasn't' necessary". Does it get any better than that? I think not! So I'll be moving soon.
As for Will - that's my husband remember? (laughs) He's still here, living with his cousin across town. He FINALLY took the initiative to get some help. For himself anyway - he's getting some good ol' government assistance. (Don't even get me started) He comes around and actually, as a casual friend, he's cool to hang out with. It's just...well, we don't have enough time for that, I'll leave it at that.
Living at the Singh's has brought back many memories...(I'll leave it at that, too) I'm sure we'll all be glad when I'm in my own house

Heyyyyy....
I know, I know...it's been awhile since I've "blogged". Life has handed me lemons and I've been making lemonade. (Sometimes it's sweet, sometimes it's bitter)
Yes, I like my job - it's got alot to offer in the way of challenges, but it's certainly secure - that's the wonderful thing about being in health care.
The kids and I are still living with my parents, which has proven to be another "challenge". If it's not one thing, it's another. Roz is having a hard time having her home disrupted by uninvited guests (Forrest and I) and I'm having a hard time living with a woman that I just KNOW, would rather have absolutely nothing to do with me. As for my father, well he tries to stay below the radar, always the peacemaker.
Will and I speak, but nothing substantial has occurred. Except for a brief hoo-hah on "Brother N Sister Day" (which used to be "Family Day" celebrating the day we officially became a family, but we're broken up as a family, so I changed the name).
Fresno has been an experience for me. Good and bad memories at almost every street corner, store, or neighborhood. Sometimes it's easy to brush off those memories and sometimes, it takes awhile. Lots of pain for me, here in this town. It's seems it's always been the beginning of something that didn't turn out quite right. Maybe I can change all that. (I guess I should get started now, since it appears I'll be here for awhile)
More to come...

Hey 'yall!!
It's been awhile since I've blogged, for several reasons: 1. I found out that I had to move from living with Jennifer (long story and ...it's really rather horrid, so I'll spare you). 2. I had no where else to move, but Fresno, with my parents - you can imagine the mental preparation I had to take to make the move. 3. Transitioning the kids to another town, another school, another congregation - HUGE. 4. I've been looking for a job!
Whew! Let me begin by saying that the last ten days has been highly emotional and full of frustrations - on most every level. I'm adjusting to alot of things - having to move to Fresno (even tho I said I'd NEVER again, live there). Living with my mother - we haven't had the best relationship to date. Seperating from my husband - which has been long and coming.
Long story short...
The kids are finally settled in. Gracyn has found a very cool teacher that challenges her academically the way she needs. Forrest just started Fresno High School today, which was a difficult transition for him, too....but he managed. My nerves were shot just gettin them prepared for their moves.
I've been looking for a job, found one, after only ten days here. (I looked in Citrus Heights for six months!) I'll be the Office Manager at the WISH (Women's Imaging Specialists in Healthcare) - wishmd.com. The salary is a little less than I made in Hawaii but the cost of living here is MUCH lower, so I'm good to go.
The next step for me is saving for a month or so and moving into my own house with the kids. We haven't had any space of our own since May.
Other than that...no news is good news, peeps.
If you're ever in Fresno, Holla...................

This just in...(from the world of the unemployed)
Yes, y'all...I'm alive. Although sometimes I wonder if it's any consolation. (laughs)
I'm still living with Jennifer, still unemployed, still struggling with Forrest (and all THAT involves), and still...waiting for something really good to happen.
This unemployment thing is really a bad trip, I'm sure most of the bazillions of unemployed folks feel the same way! But really, REALLY, I'VE HAD ENOUGH!!!!!! My unemployment benefits ran out two weeks ago, and I started to really panic. Yes, Will is working part-time at Sam's Club, but on his salary, we'll never move out.
On the advice of several clinicians and therapists, Forrest really needs his own space - being cramped up in this house is a trigger for him with his Asperger's.
As for the rest of my family, Gracyn is good, she's excited that my mom and dad are going to pick her up this Friday and take her back to Fresno with them for a week, during the Thanksgiving break. It'll be a nice little break for her and for me, although I always miss her so much.
Will and I are...ummm...well, I'm not happy, but at least I'm talking to him about not being happy. (I don't know if that's progress or the first step towards divorce) It's been twelve years of up, down, waaaaaaaaay down, a lil bit up, down again, a quick upward motion, and down to the fiery pit again. (Read between the lines)
Went on a job interview today, for a job as an Executive Assistant to the CEO of a non-profit company. It's close by (about ten minutes away) and it seemed to be promising, but I have to wait for them to call me in for an interview. (Today I interviewed for a staffing agency that recruits for them - they saw my resume on Monster.com)
I guess those are all the updates of importance. If I've forgotten something, well, send me a note and I'll see what I can do.
I'm out...

Another week, another worry.
This week has come and gone and I'll have to be honest - I'm beginning to wonder if I'll EVER work again. I haven't had an interview for over a week and I've been living here, with my high-school friend, for over four months. I never expected to be here for more than ONE month. It's discouraging. I've resigned myself to the fact that I may have to find TWO jobs that pay decently instead of my ONE job that will support my family.
Will is working.
(That's about all I'm gonna say about Will. He and I are in a horrible place right now - we don't speak, don't look, and don't seem to care about one another. Wonder how long I can go on like this before something gives?)
The kids are good. Forrest started seeing a therapist this week, which worries me. Sometimes I wonder if he's going thru a rough transition from young adult to adult vs whether he's beginning to show signs of mental health issues. Because he's predisposed to issues (my grandmother and sister), it scares me. I worry that he'll never be understood and that the frustration that arises because of that will further alienate him socially. Makes me sad.
This is all for now, peeps...Say a prayer for me...I NEED A JOB!

Here I am again...
This hasn't been one of my better weeks! The job I've been counting on didn't happen, at least not for ME. Sucks that I'm still in "searching" mode like a thousands of my neighbors. Went to a promising interview yesterday, am hoping that it works out. On the flip side, Will has been looking for a job all of two weeks, and landed one two days ago. (Sam's Club, working evenings, in produce) At first I thought..."This super-sucks, he's been looking for two weeks and I've been looking for nearly four months!" I was later reassured by a friend not to take it personally, since he's looking for ANY job and I'm looking for THE job! Made sense I guess.
Kids are good for the most part. Stacey was planning on coming out here for her "family visit" at Folsom and unfortunately, the prison is on Lockdown until further notice for blacks/whites. She may have to wait another three months - which has got her really bummed!
Besides that, not much else to report - guess no news is bad news this posting.
Someone call me if you got any ideas!!!!

Better late than never right?!
This posting is late due to some serious kinks in the life of my son. This week has been trying for me, as a parent, and at the same time - as an individual. Without going into too much detail (and protecting the confidentiality of my son), Forrest has experienced somewhat of a "breakdown" emotionally. We're getting him help and hopefully with some therapy and medication, he'll get some sort of normalcy back to his life, soon. As a parent, when your child goes thru trama (regardless of either physical or emotional) you second-guess what you could've done, what you might've said, and what you finally decided to do. I struggle with this...on a daily basis. Then I struggle with the "opinions" and advice of others, who either don't have kids or haven't had the most success with their kids - they seem to have all the answers, but aren't always there for support when you need them.
I'm sad, sad because my son is angry and in anguish most of the time. Sad because I don't know what I can do. But my next move will be to find someone who CAN help, a professional. And I'll continue to pray for the patience and determination to see him thru adolescence into adulthood. And then until I take my last breath.
Other than my challenges as a parent, I'm still actively looking for work. Had a great interview last week and thought I would hear back the beginning of this week. By Wednesday (this week) I was convinced I'd not been able to land the job. I sent an email asking for confirmation that the position had been filled, but instead got a reply back that I was still a "top candidate" and that they would be making their decision soon. Yipee! Some gleem of optimism remains.
Will has an interview today, so I'm hopeful that he'll land a job. Isn't that funny? He's been actively searching for a job for two weeks and got an interview. It took me almost three months to get my first interview, after sending out 6-8 resumes a day. Whatever.
Gracyn is doing fine, loves school and never lets me forget that parenting can be joyous! That little girl is such a blessing to me! Forrest is a blessing AND a learning experience!
This is all for now, hopefully my next blog will reflect that either Will and/or myself have landed a job and we're one step closer to being out in a place of our own.