Heyyyyy....
I know, I know...it's been awhile since I've "blogged". Life has handed me lemons and I've been making lemonade. (Sometimes it's sweet, sometimes it's bitter)
Yes, I like my job - it's got alot to offer in the way of challenges, but it's certainly secure - that's the wonderful thing about being in health care.
The kids and I are still living with my parents, which has proven to be another "challenge". If it's not one thing, it's another. Roz is having a hard time having her home disrupted by uninvited guests (Forrest and I) and I'm having a hard time living with a woman that I just KNOW, would rather have absolutely nothing to do with me. As for my father, well he tries to stay below the radar, always the peacemaker.
Will and I speak, but nothing substantial has occurred. Except for a brief hoo-hah on "Brother N Sister Day" (which used to be "Family Day" celebrating the day we officially became a family, but we're broken up as a family, so I changed the name).
Fresno has been an experience for me. Good and bad memories at almost every street corner, store, or neighborhood. Sometimes it's easy to brush off those memories and sometimes, it takes awhile. Lots of pain for me, here in this town. It's seems it's always been the beginning of something that didn't turn out quite right. Maybe I can change all that. (I guess I should get started now, since it appears I'll be here for awhile)
More to come...

Hey 'yall!!
It's been awhile since I've blogged, for several reasons: 1. I found out that I had to move from living with Jennifer (long story and ...it's really rather horrid, so I'll spare you). 2. I had no where else to move, but Fresno, with my parents - you can imagine the mental preparation I had to take to make the move. 3. Transitioning the kids to another town, another school, another congregation - HUGE. 4. I've been looking for a job!
Whew! Let me begin by saying that the last ten days has been highly emotional and full of frustrations - on most every level. I'm adjusting to alot of things - having to move to Fresno (even tho I said I'd NEVER again, live there). Living with my mother - we haven't had the best relationship to date. Seperating from my husband - which has been long and coming.
Long story short...
The kids are finally settled in. Gracyn has found a very cool teacher that challenges her academically the way she needs. Forrest just started Fresno High School today, which was a difficult transition for him, too....but he managed. My nerves were shot just gettin them prepared for their moves.
I've been looking for a job, found one, after only ten days here. (I looked in Citrus Heights for six months!) I'll be the Office Manager at the WISH (Women's Imaging Specialists in Healthcare) - wishmd.com. The salary is a little less than I made in Hawaii but the cost of living here is MUCH lower, so I'm good to go.
The next step for me is saving for a month or so and moving into my own house with the kids. We haven't had any space of our own since May.
Other than that...no news is good news, peeps.
If you're ever in Fresno, Holla...................

This just in...(from the world of the unemployed)
Yes, y'all...I'm alive. Although sometimes I wonder if it's any consolation. (laughs)
I'm still living with Jennifer, still unemployed, still struggling with Forrest (and all THAT involves), and still...waiting for something really good to happen.
This unemployment thing is really a bad trip, I'm sure most of the bazillions of unemployed folks feel the same way! But really, REALLY, I'VE HAD ENOUGH!!!!!! My unemployment benefits ran out two weeks ago, and I started to really panic. Yes, Will is working part-time at Sam's Club, but on his salary, we'll never move out.
On the advice of several clinicians and therapists, Forrest really needs his own space - being cramped up in this house is a trigger for him with his Asperger's.
As for the rest of my family, Gracyn is good, she's excited that my mom and dad are going to pick her up this Friday and take her back to Fresno with them for a week, during the Thanksgiving break. It'll be a nice little break for her and for me, although I always miss her so much.
Will and I are...ummm...well, I'm not happy, but at least I'm talking to him about not being happy. (I don't know if that's progress or the first step towards divorce) It's been twelve years of up, down, waaaaaaaaay down, a lil bit up, down again, a quick upward motion, and down to the fiery pit again. (Read between the lines)
Went on a job interview today, for a job as an Executive Assistant to the CEO of a non-profit company. It's close by (about ten minutes away) and it seemed to be promising, but I have to wait for them to call me in for an interview. (Today I interviewed for a staffing agency that recruits for them - they saw my resume on Monster.com)
I guess those are all the updates of importance. If I've forgotten something, well, send me a note and I'll see what I can do.
I'm out...

Another week, another worry.
This week has come and gone and I'll have to be honest - I'm beginning to wonder if I'll EVER work again. I haven't had an interview for over a week and I've been living here, with my high-school friend, for over four months. I never expected to be here for more than ONE month. It's discouraging. I've resigned myself to the fact that I may have to find TWO jobs that pay decently instead of my ONE job that will support my family.
Will is working.
(That's about all I'm gonna say about Will. He and I are in a horrible place right now - we don't speak, don't look, and don't seem to care about one another. Wonder how long I can go on like this before something gives?)
The kids are good. Forrest started seeing a therapist this week, which worries me. Sometimes I wonder if he's going thru a rough transition from young adult to adult vs whether he's beginning to show signs of mental health issues. Because he's predisposed to issues (my grandmother and sister), it scares me. I worry that he'll never be understood and that the frustration that arises because of that will further alienate him socially. Makes me sad.
This is all for now, peeps...Say a prayer for me...I NEED A JOB!

Here I am again...
This hasn't been one of my better weeks! The job I've been counting on didn't happen, at least not for ME. Sucks that I'm still in "searching" mode like a thousands of my neighbors. Went to a promising interview yesterday, am hoping that it works out. On the flip side, Will has been looking for a job all of two weeks, and landed one two days ago. (Sam's Club, working evenings, in produce) At first I thought..."This super-sucks, he's been looking for two weeks and I've been looking for nearly four months!" I was later reassured by a friend not to take it personally, since he's looking for ANY job and I'm looking for THE job! Made sense I guess.
Kids are good for the most part. Stacey was planning on coming out here for her "family visit" at Folsom and unfortunately, the prison is on Lockdown until further notice for blacks/whites. She may have to wait another three months - which has got her really bummed!
Besides that, not much else to report - guess no news is bad news this posting.
Someone call me if you got any ideas!!!!

Better late than never right?!
This posting is late due to some serious kinks in the life of my son. This week has been trying for me, as a parent, and at the same time - as an individual. Without going into too much detail (and protecting the confidentiality of my son), Forrest has experienced somewhat of a "breakdown" emotionally. We're getting him help and hopefully with some therapy and medication, he'll get some sort of normalcy back to his life, soon. As a parent, when your child goes thru trama (regardless of either physical or emotional) you second-guess what you could've done, what you might've said, and what you finally decided to do. I struggle with this...on a daily basis. Then I struggle with the "opinions" and advice of others, who either don't have kids or haven't had the most success with their kids - they seem to have all the answers, but aren't always there for support when you need them.
I'm sad, sad because my son is angry and in anguish most of the time. Sad because I don't know what I can do. But my next move will be to find someone who CAN help, a professional. And I'll continue to pray for the patience and determination to see him thru adolescence into adulthood. And then until I take my last breath.
Other than my challenges as a parent, I'm still actively looking for work. Had a great interview last week and thought I would hear back the beginning of this week. By Wednesday (this week) I was convinced I'd not been able to land the job. I sent an email asking for confirmation that the position had been filled, but instead got a reply back that I was still a "top candidate" and that they would be making their decision soon. Yipee! Some gleem of optimism remains.
Will has an interview today, so I'm hopeful that he'll land a job. Isn't that funny? He's been actively searching for a job for two weeks and got an interview. It took me almost three months to get my first interview, after sending out 6-8 resumes a day. Whatever.
Gracyn is doing fine, loves school and never lets me forget that parenting can be joyous! That little girl is such a blessing to me! Forrest is a blessing AND a learning experience!
This is all for now, hopefully my next blog will reflect that either Will and/or myself have landed a job and we're one step closer to being out in a place of our own.

Hey peeps!!
Here I am again, another week, another worry, right? Still not working, but have an interview tomorrow. The position is Office Manager for a Psychiatry office, specializing in child and forensic psychology. So...the bonus if I get this job (besides the obvious bonues - money, a home, food, etc)? I can get some psych help for relatives in need. Feel me? (laughs) I'll keep you posted as to how it goes.
Finally found the kingdom hall here...I'd had a few problems getting started, but I went to my first meeting last night. Everyone was very friendly (which I expected) and although we (the kids and I) were a little nervous, it all worked out.
Things here in the mainland are slowly settling down. I can't believe it's already the middle of September. Gracyn left for school this morning with a scarf (which she's been dying to wear) - which spilled into a conversation about how cold it will get here. She then confessed that she wants some "boots with the fur" for the Winter. I'm sure, even though I wish she wouldn't wear them, we can hook her up with some.
I introduced her to thrift stores this weekend. There's a place here called Eco-thrift that has some amazing clothes, some still with the tags hanging from them. It's clean and HUGE. Anyhow, she went there with me and...found alot she wanted. She did end up getting quite a bit, but not anything close to all that she wanted. Forrest seemed happy for her when she showed him her "new" things, but after hearing it was second-hand, he made it clear that he wanted absolutely nothing from there. Oh, well, ya gotta have one picky kid right?
Will began HIS job search this week, beginning with a mad dash to a temp agency and then numerous postings of his resume on the internet. I showed him how to use email and I think he's comfortable after a few days. Good for him. Good for us!!
Well, not much else to report. I'm off to search the world wide web for a J-O-B.

Okay here it is...a long awaited blog entry. (Readers have been asking)
Last time I blogged, I'd just returned from a trip to Fresno, my first trip to see my parents since we all moved from Hawaii. I was anxious about the kids starting new schools, I had concerns for both of them. I was also sweatin like a whore in church, lookin for a job.
Alot has transpired since then.
The first day of school was probably more stressful for me than it was for either of the two kids. I was concerned that one or both of them would be roaming the school alone at recess, eating lunch alone, and/or just plain feeling "alone". My heart dropped into my stomach as we dropped off Forrest first and then Gracyn.
After three weeks - I don't have much to report on regarding school for the kids except: Gracyn's teacher left her 4th grade class to teach a 3rd grade class in need of a teacher and she then got a new teacher. (When I say new I mean NEW - this is his first year as a teacher and he's super patient and fun - we're fortunate)
Forrest has only four classes in total - which is a HUGE change for him, because he spends over and hour and a half in each class, with no breaks other than lunch. (His ADHD is really being tested, as far as his being able to concentrate and be still for that long) Seems that he's had a pretty good start though.
After sending out hundreds (literally) of resumes, I finally got a call back from a large dental practice in search of an Office Manager. I went in for a short interview and was asked to come back for a working interview - spending the day observing the duties of the current Office Manager who will be leaving. Boy is this job going to be stressful, if it's offered to me. Employees are late, snobby, lazy, insubordinate, and sometimes rude - even some of the Doctors. I was asked to return for one more working interview tomorrow, at which time I'm sure they'll either offer me the job or choose another candidate. (It's now between me and another candidate - who, by the way, was not asked to come back for a second working interview)
While all of this was going down (the working interview), I received two calls from other organizations about the resume I'd submitted for positions. I have a phone interview tomorrow morning for one and I'm supposed to call the other tomorrow morning to schedule an interview. One is an Executive Assistant position, I'd be assisting the President of a large automobile parts company. The other is for a brand new psychiatry practice, with two locations, opening very soon. Either one could be good. So, I'm hoping to keep my options open and find the one with the best schedule and feel.
I can't say that anything more has changed in regards to how I've been feeling about my current situation. I'm still here, living with someone and I really have grown to be resentful of making the change so suddenly. Live and learn, I guess, huh?
Our family is back together (geographically) and we're all in good health. Guess I should consider myself fortunate.
I'll resume my blogs on Tuesdays probably, it's the time I'm sure to get some private computer time without someone trying to read my blogs over my shoulder while I type. Happy reading!!!

Greetings from the heat and bad trips in Fresno, CA!
Stacey, Will, Forrest, and myself (oh yeah, and the puppy) drove to Fresno on Saturday evening - to attend my Aunt's funeral. Day 1 was pretty uneventful. Between my mother grilling me about how I will take care of Gracyn when she comes home and Stacey's impatience, the trip left some to be desired. Day 2 we joined Katie Decker at her parent's house, took all the kids so they could swim in the pool, and then BBQ'd. Even the puppy had a good time! Day 3 was sort of a blur of "visiting" with friends. Angel came to the house with her two boys and we had dinner at my parents - Katie, Michael, and Jadyn joined us. Today is Day 4. We got up this morning, had a leisurely morning and were off to my Aunt's funeral service. Not much of a turnout. Maybe 50 people at the most. It was sort of sad, my mother said she didn't think "she had many friends". It was very nice to see some of the cousins I hadn't seen in some time. We exchanged email addresses and phone numbers - I'm promising myself that I'll do my best to keep in touch.
Now we're home, Will is going to stay behind in Fresno because he has a funeral to attend, but...I'm back to Sacramento to "handle biz" (as usual). I'm beginning to think really resent the alone state I seem to be in sometimes, as a married woman. There are times when I feel like I have the weight of the world on my shoulders and my husband sits around to watch to see how things are going to work out. Does this get better after awhile? I hope so...I'm approaching 12 years of wondering.
Anyhow, kids are back to school next week Monday (8/18) and I can't wait to get them busy, to take their mind off of being in a new area, and not having our own home. I plan on going to the Kingdom Hall in Citrus Heights for the first time on Sunday. I need all the help I can get.
After such a long few days of really peering at my family, I wonder if my REAL mother is white? My mother certainly treats me as if she sometimes is in the mood to tolerate my presence, but I've decided that being the "black sheep" is almost an honor.

Hey group!!
Well, it's been a week since I went to my first job interview and I didn't get the job. (I'd have posted on my blog right away if I did) So...I'm trying not to get too discouraged, seeing as how this is the first interview I've been on since I've been on my job hunt. I'm still applying for most ANY job, except the ones that pay $9/hr. Even looked at house to rent - it was old, dirty, and needed alot of work, too much for me to take on right now.
Stacey came today, she's gonna visit Jerome this afternoon and tomorrow, then we'll leave for Fresno tomorrow afternoon. My aunt's funeral is Tuesday. I'm anxious to see all of my Fresno friends, so this should be a good visit. Miss my Dad, too. Haven't seen him since June 4 and I feel like it's been a year.
Well, this is all for now, I'm sure you can tell by the tone of my email that I'm a little frustrated that I haven't found the "perfect job". But Imma keep tryin.
Happy Friday!

Okay, friends, here's the update.
This morning was the greatly anticipated "FIRST INTERVIEW" of my recently unemployed status. It went fairly well - I say this because I'm trying not to get my hopes up. The job was managing an Opthamology Center. It's a four physician practice, so it's large, and I would be managing the front desk operations, the Operators, the billers, and the Medical Records department.
The woman who interviewed me was very pleasant, I let her do the "interviewing" before I showcased some of my experience and talents that I thought would be desirable for the position. Then, I took control of the interview, asked what my biggest challenges would be in the position, what the organization had to offer, and asked if there was room for advancement. All the answers were satisfying for me. We closed with my asking her how many candidates she was considering. She explained that she'd narrowed it down to three, and I was one of the three. She mentioned that it worked to my benefit to be the last person she interviewed (all the other interviews were done last week). She was so friendly, and I'm hoping not to mistake that for thinking that I've landed this job. It's hard to read friendly people like that.
I've only been on about four interviews in my working life, simply because I've typically been recruited to other positions and have bypassed the interview process. However, the four that I have been on, I've either been offered the position on-the-spot, or been offered the job at a later time. Hope saying that doesn't jinx my streak.
Sooooooo...I should hear back about this job by tomorrow or Monday. I'll keep 'yall posted.
Off to eat some dinner and write a few cards out to friends I miss. (Maybe you'll be fortunate enough to get one)
Until next time...

Greetings on this Tuesday!
I've been in bed for most of the day today with a horrific headache. Don't know why, think it's stress. Stacey brought me back to Sacramento Sunday evening and she left for home last night. It was so nice to spend time with her! Nice to hang out with the friends I have in Oaktown, too! Now, I'm back her in Sactown and gotta put my nose to the grindstone again - have to find a
J-O-B! Have an interview on Thursday, so I'm hoping that I get the job, even if it's not exactly what I want...at least I'll have SOMETHING until I find somethin better.
Gracyn called me today (Yes, her and Will are still in Fresno) - she's missing me and ready to come home. Stacey and I were supposed to leave for Fresno this week Friday for a funeral (my Dad's sister, Susan) next Tuesday - we were going to bring Mr. Ray and Gracyn back home with us. Apparently, my Aunt Susan's son is in Japan and won't return until the 5th of August, so arrangements will be postponed until then. Sooooooo...Gracyn was super disappointed that we weren't coming to Fresno until further notice. Seems Will might have his sister bring them home this weekend, or the beginning of next. He says he's missing me too. So, once the husband and daughter come home - we're really gonna feel the sting of living with someone else. (It'll go from being 3 of us in the house to 5) Maybe it'll be the push we need to get outta here...
Okay so lemme see...what's new? Stacey bought me a pair of diamond earrings and a pair of diamond hoops. (My first REAL diamonds) I started drinking water on Sunday (which is good because I've NEVER been a water-drinker). I now drink about 40 oz. of water each day, which is modest for some, but GREAT for me! Forrest had his first sleepover with my sister-in-law Michelle this weekend, which was so nice, for both of them! She's such a sweetheart!
Guess those are my updates for now, I'll keep you all posted a little more regularly now that the fun is over (Stacey and I aren't together anymore!)

Hey folks!
Okay, by now you've witnessed that my "daily" blogging isn't EVERY day. (laughs)
Let's see...having a great time with Stacey, here in the bay area. I noticed that since I've been here, my sleep patterns have changed. When I was staying with Jennifer in Sacramento, I didn't go to sleep for the night until after 2 am and then I was up by 6 or 7 that same morning. I felt, I dunno, edgy, frustrated...just uneasy. Since I've been at Stacey's, I've been to sleep before 1am and have managed to get almost 6 or 7 hours of sleep each evening - which is something I've not been able to do, historically. I've decided that it's because I feel like I'm "home" here with Stacey. Sure, I still have the same pressures and decisions facing me, but I feel a sense of encouragement and optimism that I wasn't feeling in Sacramento.
I've also been faced with the fact that there is nothing I'd like more than to live in the Bay Area. I love the weather, the people watching, the hustle and bustle - I loved it when I lived here years ago. I've thought about just trying to find a good job and a safe place for my family settle into, but then there's the reality:
1. The cost of living is just as high here, as it was in Hawaii - in some areas, higher.
2. The school districts in some areas, leave a lot to be desired
3. The extreme difference in culture may be a little too overwhelming for the kids
So, I've been forced to appreciate that despite my strong desire to live here, it's not the best choice for my family as a unit. Tough pill to swallow, but it's what I signed up for when I committed to being a mother and wife, right?
I'll be leaving on Sunday, to go back to Citrus Heights and I'll be back with a vengance, the determination that I need to secure a great job! I guess this time away has been rejuvenating for me. And I'm on my way already. I got a call (only my second call back from the 50 resumes I've sent out, can ya believe it?!) yesterday, from an Opthamologist's office looking for an Office Manager. Have an interview next week Thursday. Hope it works out.
My father's sister died on Monday. She'd been suffering from congestive heart failure and her body just couldn't function anymore. She's the youngest of my father's sisters, and his siblings insist that she and I have always looked just like one another. I'm honored!
Stacey and I will be traveling to Fresno next week Friday, and staying until Wednesday. (The funeral is on the 5th, that Tuesday) It'll be nice to see all of my father's side of the family, I'm not nearly as close to them as I'd like to be and it's difficult to have such a somber reunion. On the flip side, only a few members of that side of my family have met my kids, and none have ever met Will - so it will be an introduction of sorts, too.
After that, August will be well underway and before I know it, it'll be time for the kids to start school and then we move closer to the end of the year and the beginning of another. I was just telling my sisters (Stacey and Michelle) last night, that I hope my 39th year is better than the year I had at 38. Don't think I could handle it, on top of everything else.
Off to enjoy a day of sun and solace in Oaktown!

Hey there!
It's been a couple of days since I've blogged, guess I've just had alot going on. Let's see...
I'm here at Stacey's, she came to get me yesterday...thank goodness. I was about to lose my mind sittin up in that house everday, ALL DAY. Several things factor into this...one being that I'm not used to being without my friends for so long. (I'm used to having my friends, two or three, or FIVE, at my house, at all times of the day) Next, it's that I'm bored. I'm without a car, so I'm basically stuck within the apartment...that's difficult. Lastly, I'm fairly certain that not having my own "space" is wearing on me. The four of us have ALL of our stuff in ONE bedroom. ONE closet. ONE bathroom. It's cramped. I must sound like a super-duper complainer, but it's just gettin to be "close quarters", I think. I'm doing my best to be patient, diligent, and ....well, I guess that's it.
Made a big change today, and I'm sure it's gonna turn out to be one of the best decisions of my life. (Some of life's secrets are meant to be shared...this is not one of em) (laughs)
Will's sister texted me last night, which was a surprise. I've not spoken to her since she disrespected me 7 years ago (in my own home, for the record). So...I'll have to see how this works out. I will either approach this as a "fresh start" for her and I or...I'll realize it's something I'm not capable of doing. I'll just have to see.
More later...gotta go to the store.

Hey all!
Looked for so many jobs yesterday and today! I am still maintaining a positive attitude. Feel a little out of touch with "adulthood", living with another adult when I'm almost 40, for an unknown period of time. It's difficult, but I'm dealin...I could use all the positive reinforcement I can get.
I found out today that my father's sister, Susan, is dying of congestive heart-failure and I'm supposed to prepare for a funeral. It's difficult for me for several reasons: The family says I look just like she did at my age; Because of geography I haven't been as close to my father's family as I'd of liked to be; I feel for my father...this will be the second sibling that he has lost. (I can't even imagine what that must feel like)
It seems I've been a candidate for scams at every turn this week. On Saturday I was offered to rent a 3BR/2BA house for $950, but couldn't see it until I'd filled out an application. The keys would be sent to me by FEDEX courier, because the "owner" was in Africa, doing "missionary work". More Red flags? The application was six questions relating to my age, occupation (not salary), address, phone number, marital status, and transportation (specifically "Do you have a car"). I mean, two of those questions it's illegal to ask. So I googled the address and found out that the house was sold in May, purchased in June and appeared to be for sale again. Luckily I found out before I took the bait and gave out my personal information. I would've never sent money without good reason, but I'm sure there's someone out there that would have.
Next, I was declined a job by a company but told they had another position that I was "qualified and met requirements" for...this was a job where I would be sent checks, I would deposit them into my personal bank account, keep 10% as my commission and give the rest to the company as an "accounts receivable" transaction. All of this under the guise of being "perfectly legal". People are scammin fools dontcha think?
This "moving" experience has been just that...moving. I've realized who considers my friendship seriously and who blew smoke up my skirt when they said, "we'll keep in touch". If you're a friend, and you're reading this, I don't have to tell you which category you belong in...you'll know. The bottom line is...I'm glad to have my eyes open and be willing to look at the reality of the situation. Some say, "friends come into your life for a "reason, season, or momment". I have friends who've shown this to be true. Makes me appreciate life and it's practicality.
Well, off to bed to get four hours of sleep (yep, that's my sleeping pattern these days) and hit the job search again, running.
i.

Well, plans for my trip to Oakland fell through. I was SUPER disappointed because I'm getting "cabin fever" being stuck in this apartment all day, no car and no job. Most of the time, no money, either. (lol) But, I put my nose to the grindstone again this morning and went out to the web for another day of job searching. Found more exciting things today then I have in the last five days, so I...remain hopeful.
The bright side of yesterday and this morning was being able to spend some time with Carla. It had been so very long since we'd seen eachother and we got the chance to catch up, talk story, and just really enjoy eachother's company. I cooked us dinner, we sat and talked until 2am and then fell asleep. We looked at her wedding album (One of the two weddings...lol) and I saw myself with my 90's hairdo...sitting with a man I don't even remember, but apparently he was my "date". (lol) I'm gettin old, I have such memory loss it's embarassing. (Gotta keep the pin code to my atm card in my cell phone...lol)
Forrest and Gracyn just got a puppy. His name is GER (gur), if they don't change it again in the next couple of days. He's brand new and a miniature chihuahua. (Didja even know they came smaller than the orignal's?) This will be good for Forrest, help him to learn responsibility and nurturing. The puppy is so cute, but...I'm not pickin up poop or sprayin down pee. Feel me?
I miss Gracyn alot, and my mother is trying her best to convince me to let her "keep" Gracyn, until we're settled into our own home. As most of you know, this isn't my first time around this conversation with Roz...sometimes I get the idea that she thinks I might just say, "You know what, Mom, I know how much you love her and...you can just keep her. We'll visit occassionally". Never. NEVER. I love that little girl, love both of my kids, and giving her to my parents (just because they adore her) isn't in the cards for me.
(Can I get an AMEN?)
Anyhoo, this is all for now, time to go eat my meal for the day. (Haven't really had much of an appetite lately)

Sorry for the delay, I know I announced that my blog would begin last night, but I just didn't get to it.
What's new? Still haven't had anything solid as far as the job market is concerned. I'm not discouraged yet, though, I've only been here in Sacramento for two weeks. I was talking to Neil Meatoga (some of you may know him from Hawaii, he worked for me as our IT Director)...he told me that he's been here since June 6 and hasn't really found anything yet. I guess neither one of us has gotten totally worried yet. He told me that there was an L&L Drive-In here and that I could get local grinds (food) there. I was so excited! I feel like I'm gonna lose lots of weight seeing how I don't really make rice here. I think I've made it twice, on the stove top, and it wasn't as good.
Miss all of my Hawaii Posse so badly, it brings tears to my eyes sometimes! I've kept in touch with some of my friends, and the ones I haven't, I guess it says something about the depth of our friendship to begin with.
The cost of living here is so inexpensive. I've looked at 3br/2ba houses that rent for anywhere from $975-1300 for a nice place. If you pay more, you're getting a beautiful house in a great area.
Today my friend Carla is coming to spend the day and night with me and I'll be taking the train to Oakland tomorrow to work for the day with a friend, in her law office. Wednesday, Stacey flies back from New York and I'll spend a couple of days with her and take the train back on Saturday sometime. Can't wait to spend time with her, always good fun!
William and Gracyn are in Fresno. She's visiting with her grandparents and he's kickin back with his family and friends. I'm hoping he'll come back ready to hit the job market with me! We need to move out within the next month! We need our own space and I wanna get the kids settled for school in whatever neighborhood we'll be living in.
As far as any other changes or updates...don't really have any, except...I'm looking forward to a new beginning of some sort, here in California. I turned 39 yesterday (7/13) and I'm certainly hoping that this year is waaaay better than the last year. I don't think I could go through much more disappointment and worry.
Miss all of you and hope to hear from you soon!
i.